My journey has been one of deep healing, and also one of intense spiritual awakening that has spanned over the last 18 years. For me they both go hand in hand. I would not have been able to go to the depths, to mine the shadow, had it not been for the light that I carry or the spiritual connection that I cultivated. I am passionate about that alchemical process of transformation…..transforming the compost, the dank dark shadow into the glorious gold of your soul. It is living alchemy, divine alchemy, evolution.

I resonate the most with the Star card in the Tarot, this card represents Isis, the goddess of 10,000 names ~ known as the “way Shower” guiding us out of the darkness of unconsciousness and into enlightenment. The star represents reclaiming of the Self in a true authentic way. This is exactly what my personal path has been. Isis is also one of my strongest guides and energies that I work with. My favorite place to sit is in the depth of her wise and beautiful soul.

In the beginning, I immersed myself in many  spiritual traditions always looking for the similarities and  the truth within all. I started with pagan and earth magic, plant magic and honoring the moon, equinoxes, and solstices. From that I studied Shamanism with a 5th generation female shaman from Siberia. I learned much about honoring the spirit world and nature and received much healing from the ceremonies and soul retrievals. I also studied with an amazing woman for 3 years who taught me reiki, how to work with guides, meditation, channeling, psychic surgery, psychic healing. She carried so much light and always held me in that space of who I really was, she saw me and that was an incredible gift. I then went to another school to study energy and working with guides, I received many activations and healing with light during that time. I learned from all my teachers ways to heal the body, soul, and spirit. I was learning to awaken my spiritual energy and develop myself as a channel and guide for energy and light. I  then went on to study eastern traditions, egyptian mysteries and healing, goddess remembering, archangels, light body and DNA activations, star energies, and much more. My path is much like the art I create, a layering of many textures, colors and energies all woven together in my own unique way. I would say at this point I don’t have a single tradition I follow other than continuing to awaken and evolve, a path of truth, self realization, & liberation from all that is untruth.

As I walked this path, I had to learn to listen to the voice of my soul, it is the voice that was always speaking the loudest, always nudging me to understand truth, the spirit, the soul, awakening, divinity, and Self. I was fortunate and was guided to find very powerful beings who lovingly reminded me of my own light along the way. Thank goodness for all of them, they were the way showers for me and saw me way before I could see myself, or even accept what I came here to do in this life time.

At this point in my awakening, I can in truth say that I have cultivated spiritual power that has been consciously awakened within. Am I special? No. Am I dedicated? Absolutely yes. Is it easy? Not at all. Is it worth it? I would live no other way.

I am an old soul. I am a soul who chose to remember and awaken so that I could be a way shower for the evolutionary shift that we are currently in. I am here to shine my light bright and remind others of the light they carry. All the ways I was helped and supported to stand in my purpose, I can now help others to remember who they are and help them awaken to their own beautiful light and purpose in this lifetime. I now fully embrace this path of light and express divine energy through my art, oils, voice, hands, and heart. Hoe beautiful to finally stand in this and not be afraid of this path, or feel that I have to hide or keep it a secret. Those days are long gone!

I have had lifetimes of being a priestess, oracle, shaman, peruvian herb healer and medicine woman, initiated into healing with light through the Yeshua lineage, a faith healer, gypsy, connected to the Magdalene lineage, Native American daughter of a chief, many lives of being a prophet, seer, healer. Lives of working in the oil rooms in the temples of Egypt, lives of working with divine feminine energy, shakti, and mystery schools. It is no wonder that I came back again to work with essential oils, energy, wisdom and healing, to reawaken the divine feminine and embody cosmic energy. It runs deep in my soul.

It has taken me quite a bit of  work, diligence, and dedication to become comfortable with so much light, and so much spiritual energy. I had become a master at hiding, I didn’t want anyone to see who I was…I thought it was easier that way!  Eventually it became so uncomfortable and unbearable to hide who I was that I took the risk and started coming out more and more. I have had to clear many incarnations of persecution, death, hiding my light to protect myself, you name it….an old soul has been around the persecution block so to speak. and then there is the part about my work being very unconventional and not always accepted. Lots of discomforts to become comfortable with.

I have been working on my spiritual self for many years. I have experienced many activations, downloads, meditations with masters, spiritual workshops, very profound experiences. I thought I was pretty good. About 2 years ago I started working with a couple who are truly dedicated to soul evolution, they live in Mount Shasta and what they offer is the real deal. No frills, no magic potion, no ego. I made pilgrimages to Mount Shasta 9 times in 18 months for spiritual workshops they offered and then would stay in the area receiving activations, spiritual energy, and high vibrations. Little did I know what I was being guided into.

If we knew the level we would be asked to give up our identities, our attachments, our ego….would we continue on this sometimes intensive journey? Maybe so, maybe not. I did not see what was coming, that is for sure. I wasn’t asking for it, I wasn’t doing anything to ignite it. I was simply following my guidance and my soul, and my deep desire to live my purpose.

I experienced a spontaneous kundalini awakening about two years ago. This was a very rapid transformation and spiritual awakening. Nothing could have prepared me for this, and maybe also everything prepared me for this. Thank goodness I was self employed because I could not work much during the most intense part. I experienced intense pains, intense crying for days, rapid dissolving of my identity as a healer, as a sound healer, as an artist….the list goes on. Rapid stripping of all inner conditionings, cellular cleansing, programming. It was really intense and challenging. I could share this with some people, and some I could only share that I was in deep transformation. What I found was the western modern world has little understanding of this intense spiritual energy and awakening. Many people thought it was cultivated for sex, some thought it was glamorous and that it would instantly would make them more psychic, more whatever and they would tell me they were also having kundalini. Trust me, the experience they were having was nothing like what I was walking through. The experience in and if itself is very humbling. I will say it is a very powerful force and it is not to be taken lightly. People end up in the mental hospital from the rapid dissolving and clearing. I was very fortunate. The most intense phase lasted for about 6 months. Sometimes I wouldn’t be able to sleep for days, I would be running so much energy, other times I would sleep 12 hour days and could barely get up after that. It took me another  8-12 months to even begin to balance out my systems from the energetic tidal wave. I am just now feeling the beginning of balance from this experience. It slammed me into my truth of my Self, I could see what was true spiritual energy and not true spiritual energy. My channel opened even wider, my third eye opened very wide, and my heart expanded beautifully, not that it didn’t hurt so very much as it was clearing, healing, and opening……it was quite painful and very intense.

Celia Fenn  refers to this process as the Grand Awakening that goes along with the shift into the crystalline states of Being. It is an awakening to who you really are, it shifts tremendous amounts of stuck and old energy very very quickly. As more people awaken and step into evolution, I will be able to offer my guidance and assistance to help others understand what is happening to them, how to assist the body and emotions with this intense process, and how to walk through this with ease, understanding, and support. Yes,  I am a way shower.  That means I often walk through something first, then turn around and help many others through the pathway I carved out and am able to share from my experiences how to do this without completely falling apart!

This awakening also propelled me forward into my purpose at lightening speed. I am a channel for Divine Light and Wisdom. I create shifts and transformations with my voice, channeled words, and channeled energies through my hands and heart. I had this ability before, but it was different. I would blend with different energies for healing and I would transmit that out of my hands as I was doing session work. The speaking from this place is new, and the transmitting of such a high level of divine energy is new. I am still in the final phase phase of becoming a fully conscious channel for the light, I am still in that transformation. I am stepping into it with guidance, wisdom, and much respect for this energy.

I am now in a place where I can more easily express the powerful energies of the Divine Feminine in my life and in my work. I have always been on a journey toward the reactivation and remembering of the Divine Feminine, and now I can easily radiate it through my being, my art, and the energies that flow through me.

I have also had a lifelong intense  journey just in the healing of the mother. Again, the darkness I experienced led me to the light of Divine Mother, Cosmic Mother, and being an expression of these beautiful energies. Quan Yin, Isis, and the Tara’s were some of the first energies that I started to work with and channel through my energy and hands during session work. That started about 6 years ago and has continued to open, deepen and awaken.

It has been work and definitely has not come easy. I have had amazing teachers and guides that have assisted in this great spiritual remembering and awakening. I allowed myself to be in the transformational fires many times so that the gold of my soul could be revealed. I have deep gratitude for all who have helped me get to this place of openly sharing who I am.

My journey is not done, in some ways it seems like it has just started. This version is a very short story of my spiritual journey, a distilled version of the alchemy of the soul. The journey of awakening and remembering of my truest self and cultivating a deep connection to spirit, to soul, and the divine. This is what I came here to be, to express, and to share. I am in service to the light and offer this up for all to receive.

Much love and Many Blessings to all of you, Brenda